Reset

I feel like I've been here before, somewhere a step outside of what I'd call comfortable. Vacation was good, time well spent for the most part even though my to do list grows day by day. I'm definitely feeling more at home in Fresno, probably since I've been living with friends and don't feel completely restricted to my own room. I spend a good deal of time in Bakersfield for various reasons. Friends and family primarily, though I do try to leverage that into work time. There is more than a slight feeling of living in two places at once.

I'm not really sure how much I can talk about work here, but I'll just say I'm feeling more in place now than i was when I last updated this. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not but I really am feeling more sure footed about it.

So if I'm feeling more comfortable about where I'm at and what I'm doing, why is it that I feel about the same as I was at the beginning of the year? While I do know what the answer to that question is, I'm rather stumped as to where to go from this point. The past month has been interesting to say the least. I've done somethings that I've been meaning to do for a long time and I feel much better for it. I've also done somethings I feel kinda bad about, but ultimately don't regret.

Ultimately I'm back where I was in February; apologizing for this breaking down into a "bitch blog", go figure. However I do want to thank you for putting up with it, that is if you got this far. To make it up to you, I'll make sure to post after my trip up to Portland/Salem about how much fun I had and all the micro-brews I drank.

Night everyone, I'm going to sleep.