Grooves

Hi all,
Every once in a while I'll come to a realization about my life that makes me a little reflective. Not some moment of clarity but a small tidbit that probably makes a big difference in the type of person I am.

I haven't had a steady day to day schedule in almost a decade. Between jobs and school there hasn't been a time where I feel like I'm in a groove. I guess to some people that would be a great thing in the sense that you avoid a dull repetition but I don't think I've avoided that either. Maybe it was just a tedious time but I've realized that I have no internal clock. I don't get tired at a specific time or wake up when I need to. It's one of those things that has let me be flexible with work in the past but now it's a complete hindrance.

This new job requires a certain schedule, and it's not one that I've ever been good with. I should be getting up around 6 and out the door by 6:45 - 7:00 and I should be getting home around 3:00 - 4:00 but that's usually not the case. I can do that fine if I'm meeting someone at work but since I'm working alone almost everyday I can't bring myself to get up most mornings. The sad thing is that I'm still getting up very early compared to where I was this time last year. The problem is that still isn't good enough. Hopefully this will get easier with time but man, it sucks now.

I didn't want this to be a "bitch blog" but at the same time I do like the idea of having a place to air out my headaches. But no fear! I have been watching a bunch of movies lately (all documentaries) and feel the need to write something up about them. I got one more to watch tomorrow and I let you all know what I think. Like you care or something

Laters

Starting off fresh

Hello all,

I've finally gotten around to starting a new blog, and hopefully it won't deteriorate in updates like all my other ones. I'm currently up late, cleaning my room and getting the itch to do other things I've been putting off, hence the new blog. So congratulations, your reading the result of a fresh batch of late night caffeine and some spur of the moment productivity.

I'll try to keep things lively in upcoming posts but don't be surprised to see me bitching about my life. I can't afford a therapist so like millions of other people I've decided the best way work through any mental anguish is by posting thoughts to the internet.

Seemed like a good idea at the time.